"We seldom get into trouble when we speak softly. It is only when we raise our voices that the sparks fly and tiny molehills become great mountains of contention."
Recently,
I was sent a list of five questions from a communications company
looking for part-time help. When I got to question No. 4, it gave me
pause, and made me smile:
“(Organization
name) is undergoing big changes… This makes for a chaotic,
stressful and sometimes unorganized work environment. What has
prepared you in your life for this?”
I
am a mother to four young children. I own
the chaotic, stressful and sometimes unorganized work environment.
That should qualify me for pretty much any job, shouldn’t it?
I
played over those words in my mind for some time: Chaotic. Stressful.
Unorganized. Check, check and check. But there are certainly moments
of peace, calm and fairly well-structured time. And it’s
usually when the children are at school.
As
a child (read: self-involved teenager), I thought my mom made such a
dramatic case for the need for silence. She wouldn’t want the
radio on at times. She’d steal away for quiet moments, even a
few seconds of silence, when she could. I just really, really didn’t
get her need to be noise-free from time to time. And how could I?
(This serves as yet another reminder that you simply cannot
comprehend some things until you do them yourself.)
Some
years later I found myself in my mid-20s and single, and thinking
that my life was too quiet. Sure, I had lots of friends and a good
career. But I found myself yearning for the pitter-patter of little
feet, the giggle of young laughter, all the sounds that children
make. (This serves as yet another reminder to enjoy the station in
which we currently reside.)
Since
then, four pairs of little feet have entered my life and created more
than a little pitter-patter. How could I have known that those little
feet soon become thumping, jumping instruments of loud bodacious
booming? Or that the sweetest little giggles can turn into obnoxious
chiming taunts designed to bring another sibling to screams? Or that
all the sounds that children make can culminate into such a cacophony
of head-crashing sounds that I want to grab my head and scream out
just like Dr. Seuss’ Grinch, “All the noise, noise,
noise, noise!”
I’ve
heard rumors of some households filled with children that really are
rather quiet for the most part. I’ve heard the rumors, but I
didn’t say I believed in them. And, if they do in fact exist, I
can declare with certainty that I do not live in one of them.
A
two-minute excerpt from a recent weekday evening found me the
recipient of a barrage of questions/statements:
“Mom,
what letter should I turn my body into next? I just did a lower case
“l”, now I’ll make me into an uppercase “L!”
“Mom,
how many minutes do I have left to read?”
“Mom,
do you want to hear me read my new library book?”
“Mom,
where’s my planner?”
“Mom,
what’s for dinner tomorrow?”
“Mom,
what’s for breakfast tomorrow?”
“Mom,
Mason just jumped over five stairs!”
“Mom,
I played tetherball at recess. I’m getting really good.”
“Mom,
a girl swallowed her tooth at recess today. That’s why I try to
never suck in hard when I have a loose tooth.”
And
on and on and mom and mom it went.
Twenty
minutes later, I’m tucking the kids into bed and my son is
praying for “mommy’s head to stop hurting.”
The
noise component of motherhood can be downright exhausting.
And
so, like the many things that come full circle, I find myself
clamoring for moments of silence whenever I can get them, just like I
remember my mom doing. I love music, but find at times it’s
best to turn it off and enjoy the sound of nothingness. I find my
evening television viewing — which has always been minimalistic
at best — dwindling even further, opting instead for quieter
activities when I find myself with some “me” time.
Have
you ever found yourself just sitting and listening to the sound of
silence when provided the opportunity? Had my younger, childless self
looked into a crystal ball and observed the slightly older mothering
me simply sitting and enjoying the silence, I would not have believed
it. But I surely do partake of such sweetness from time to time, with
gusto.
I
smiled at my daughter’s recent recounting of what she has
learned thus far in music class this school year: about the land of
music, wherein dwells the Note Family and the Rest Family. The Note
Family always makes sound, while the Rest Family is always quiet.
Together, they build a House of Music and send it to the Land of
People.
This
has reminded me that neither the notes nor the sound is more
important than the other: both are necessary to make music!
The
truth about the noise, however, is that I sure do love those little
people who produce it in voluminous amounts.
The
truth is that sometimes it gets overwhelming and I can barely
remember a time when my life wasn’t filled with the many and
varied sounds of children.
The
truth is that the noise too will someday come full circle, and like
the dirty fingerprints on the windows, one day will be gone from my
daily life. When that happens, I know in my heart of hearts I will
once again wish for it.
The
truth is that I relish the moments of quiet when I can find them, and
the more I can appreciate the silence the more I am ready to enjoy
the noise once again.
The
truth is, in my world there is a Sound Family and a Silence Family.
Together, they build moments and memories of great and small
importance in my Land of Harmony.
Melissa Howell was born and raised in the woods of northern Minnesota. She has a degree in
journalism from the University of Minnesota.
As a single 20-something, she moved to Colorado seeking an adventure. She found one, first in
landing her dream job and then in landing her dream husband; four children followed.
Upon becoming a mother, she left her career in healthcare communications to be a stay-at-home
mom, and now every day is an adventure with her husband Brian and children Connor (9), Isabel
(6), Lucas (5) and Mason (2).
In addition, she is a freelance writer and communications consultant for a variety of
organizations.
Melissa serves as Assistant director of media relations for stake public affairs and Webelos den leader