When my
intended husband said he didn’t really like Christmas, I didn’t
believe him. How could anyone not like Christmas?
I loved
Christmas. Christmas was wonderful when I was growing up. We had
projects, and goodies, we had traditions.
First
of all, there was the music. I loved all the music of Christmas; it
was what often bubbled up to the surface when I was happy, even if it
might not be December. We were exposed to the majesty of Handel’s
Messiah and had fun with “Rudolph the Red-nosed Reindeer,“ and learned
carols from all over the world.
There
were the decorations. My father had obtained three large glass
balls, in green, gold, and red, then three in plastic some years
later, which would be hung from the ceiling at the peak between the
living and dining rooms. There were six total because there was one
for each child; half were plastic because the company quit making
them in glass. At about fifteen inches in diameter, they were
dramatic. (The only reason I knew we had sort of an attic with a
pull-down trap and ladder was that the Christmas decorations lived
there.)
We made
wreaths or nativity figures or something most years. I was deprived,
I suppose, because we didn’t make gingerbread houses. We
always made some of our gifts, and did lots of baking. As an adult,
I know it was a lot of work, but as a child it was wonderful.
We
started cutting our own trees one year, and it became a standing
expedition in mid-December to go out to this spot in the country,
choose and cut a tree, lash it to the top of the station wagon, and
take our frozen selves to a country inn to have fried chicken and
corn fritters, its specialties. Then we would get our tree home and
inevitably discover that it was too tall, even for the highest spot
in our cathedral ceiling.
My
father would cut off some of the base, wrestle it into the tree
stand, and then it was time to decorate. We made and painted plaster
of paris ornaments, three of which I have now. We had bubble lights,
which I still think are really cool. We had all kinds of balls, and
strings of cranberries or popcorn, and tinsel to finish it off. We
typically had the biggest tree of anybody I knew.
There
were foods, even if I didn’t care a lot for stollen, the German
sweet bread with candied fruit, that my mother made every year to
give away. There were cookies, and Danish kringle for Christmas
morning, and a traditional English dinner of roast goose and fig
pudding. Real fig pudding, and we would give that away too, singing,
“We brought you some figgy pudding, we brought you some figgy
pudding…”at their doors. (Then my mother would explain
how to heat it and how to make burnt-sugar syrup to go with it, that
it was very rich and they should top it all off with whipped cream.)
Christmas
was glorious. If you had a family, and you weren’t homeless or
orphaned or the like, how could you not like Christmas?
Well, I
found out that my new husband was, in truth, not excited about
Christmas. He wasn’t a bah-humbug cynic, but he didn’t
have the boundless happy memories of Christmas that I did. His
parents had an often rocky marriage, and Christmas tended to end up
fraught with tension, leading to fights, because money was hard and
they didn’t communicate with each other. So the contrast
between the natural hopes of a child and the contrast between his
reality and the excited anticipation of his friends could be painful.
He never felt that his dad valued anything he gave him, even when he
expended great thought and planning; once he even found his gift
quietly put out on the shelf of his dad’s small store later,
for sale. Ouch.
He was
willing to agree that he wanted to enjoy Christmas, and the key was
having children of our own and making our own memories and magic.
Finding the delight on his child’s face, getting something just
right, made a Christmas convert out of him.
Every
couple has to blend their backgrounds, patterns, and traditions.
Sometimes that can be a challenge. I lucked out, I guess, because in
our case that was a cinch where Christmas was concerned. I outlined
how we used to do Christmas Eve and Christmas Day in my family, and
he added a couple of things, considered, and said, sounds good.
So, on
Christmas Eve we would go out driving and looking at Christmas
lights, then come home and gather together in reverence for him to
read the Christmas story out of Luke. We would follow with family
prayer, and then send the kids to get ready for bed. Once that was
accomplished, they would gather again and we would read, “The
Night Before Christmas” and hang their stockings. We never had
a fireplace or mantel, each child would get a chair or couch cushion,
and their gifts from Santa would be there in the morning. Santa does
not wrap presents in our house, life is too short. Wrapped presents
go under the tree, and there was always one from Mom and Dad there,
separate from Santa.
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We bought this tree skirt at a school bazaar because it was made by a good friend when our kids were in elementary school together. It's made of simple granny squares. We now have an artificial, smaller tree, but it wouldn't be our tree without this skirt and its memories.
The
kids would gather together in somebody’s room and count down
the time, giggling and whispering, until they were allowed to knock
on our door and say it was time. Then they would line up (his rule)
and go down the stairs. Breakfast came between stockings and the
presents under the tree, so that I could take note of who gave what
from the extended family and the whole process didn’t run riot.
We made
sugar cookies; the only time I make them is Christmas, and we tumbled
onto painted rather than frosted cookies—you use evaporated
milk and food coloring, maybe some accent sprinkles, and bake them as
usual. Less mess and less sugar than frosted, and now our grandkids
are making them too. We still go caroling to take baked goodies to
our friends and I am now famous for pumpkin bread, something I had
never heard of when I was a kid.
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Our table isn't complete without these colorful mugs. (There are eight.) They were a perfect gift to the family twenty years ago.
I did
cook a goose twice over forty years, and made fig pudding once. We
found our own favorite foods and traditions. My sister gave us candy
molds and plaster of paris to make ornaments one year, an echo of our
own childhood project, and I bring them out for our tree still. Some
are very precisely painted, some not, depending on the age of the
child who made them, but I love them all.
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The larger ornament on the left, the poinsettia, is one I have from making them in my youth. The little ones are ones our kids made, the less-neat center ones by younger children, the careful detail evident on the other ones done by the older kids.
We have
many gifts from loved ones that we continue to use for years.
There
are all kinds of ways of making Christmas. In this contentious,
stressed-out world the value of shared family joy is more needed than
it’s ever been. Christmas should be a magical season; it needs
to be special. Making a Christmas centered around sharing, creating,
and giving helps us remember and cherish the gift of the Christ child
we celebrate.
Marian J. Stoddard was born in Washington, D.C., and grew up in its Maryland suburbs. Her
father grew up in Carson City, Nevada, and her mother in Salt Lake City, so she was always
partly a Westerner at heart, and she ended up raising her family in Washington State. Her family
took road trips all over the United States and Canada, so there were lots of adventures.
The adventures of music, literature, and art were also valued and pursued. Playing tourist always
included the local museums as well as historical sites and places of natural beauty. Discussions
at home, around the dinner table or working in the kitchen, could cover politics, philosophy, or
poetry, with the perspective of the gospel underlying all. Words and ideas, and testimony and
service, were the family currency.
Marian graduated from Winston Churchill High School in Potomac, Maryland, and attended the
University of Utah as the recipient of the Ralph Hardy Memorial Scholarship, where she was
graduated with honors, receiving a B.A. in English. She also met the love of her life, a law
student, three weeks after her arrival; she jokes that she had to marry him because her mother
always wanted a tenor in the family. (She sings second soprano.) They were married two years
later and have six children and six grandchildren (so far). She treasures her family, her friends,
and her opportunities to serve.
Visit Marian at her blog, greaterthansparrows. You can contact her at
bloggermarian@gmail.com.
Marian and her husband live in Tacoma, Washington. Together they teach those who are
preparing to go to the temple for the first time, and she also teaches a Stake Relief Society
Institute class.