"We seldom get into trouble when we speak softly. It is only when we raise our voices that the sparks fly and tiny molehills become great mountains of contention."
You
know — the kind of hunger that hardens in your stomach and
pulls at your limbs, making them twice as heavy as they should be.
The kind of hunger that makes your brain feel fuzzy and leaves you,
more or less, a walking low-blood-sugar zombie.
I
was that
kind of hungry, and I still had at least four hours left on campus.
These four hours required my brain to function extremely well, and at
the moment that seemed impossible. Evening classes and study groups
can be marvelous, but not when you leave your wallet (and sole means
of purchasing food) at home.
It
also helps to have actual money in the wallet, which I didn’t.
Payday was later that week and so was my planned grocery run. I knew
I was doomed.
As
I considered my fate, a memory of one of my first roommates played in
my mind.
That
girl knew
what faith was, and she knew how to fully utilize the power of
prayer. When she came upon rough financial times, she prayed for help
to receive some needed things and in the next few days found a new
t-shirt, was given a brand new pair of shoes, and had a complete
stranger offer to buy lunch for her while she stood in line for a job
application.
Those
are what I consider results,
which is probably why her experience stuck out so much in my memory.
If
she could pray, I could pray. But what exactly should I say? I
usually only thought to pray about long-term needs, "righteous
desires," and emotional or spiritual help; not immediate,
physical needs. Those seemed a bit too obvious to pray for.
Other
phrases floated through my mind, like, “after all we can do,”
and “study first, then ask.” It isn’t as though I
had a hunger management plan that I was proposing. I had no other
thought than to mention that I was uncomfortably hungry. Isn’t
that complaining? Murmuring?
Then
a little thought nudged me. Why wouldn’t God want me to tell
Him how I feel?
Suddenly
it felt like the most natural thing in the world to pray and tell God
that I was hungry. So I did. And thinking of my exemplary roommate, I
asked that — if possible — I might not feel so hungry
while I still had schoolwork to do.
The
logical answer to this prayer was that the burden I’d mentioned
would be made lighter and I simply wouldn't feel as hungry anymore.
How many times had that been a silent prayer on fast Sunday? Seemed
reasonable. That must be how God would answer my prayer.
I
decided to take a different exit on the way to my next class. Why
not? I was certain that my burden was going to be made lighter, and I
might as well act like it by doing some campus sightseeing. And
truly, college life has not been lived to the fullest until you’ve
used all possible doors to enter and exit a building.
Winding
my way down through the science building, I passed the food science
wing. I’d walked briskly through this particular hallway
before, but never paid attention to anything. It was fun to read the
research posters and see what types of pictures, comics, and quotes
they had taped to their doors.
And
then I saw a sign too large to ignore, hanging on an A-frame in the
center of the hallway. It read "Taste Panel," with an arrow
pointing into an unassuming office. Taste panel, huh? Tasting things
was very much on my mind, and this seemed too good to be true.
I
poked my head through the door-jamb, not unlike a mouse hopeful for
cheese but always alert for signs of sudden death. A woman sitting at
a desk smiled at me as I pulled the rest of myself through.
"Um,
can I ask about this taste panel thing?"
"Sure,"
she said, "just fill out this form and I'll have you go in. It's
good today."
"So
I'm… really tasting stuff?"
"Yeah.
You'll answer questions about the food and it should only take about
fifteen minutes.”
“What
is
this place?”
She
laughed.
I
filled out the form and walked through yet another door into a long,
thin room with cubicles lining the right wall. Sitting down in a
chair I got a good look at my cubicle while my stomach made
unladylike noises.
Unlike
the boring study spaces in the library, this cubicle had accessories,
the most noticeable being a mounted monitor and a sizeable
rectangular opening directly underneath it. The space behind the
opening was lit and I realized it opened into another room.
Sounds
started coming from the room beyond, and suddenly in the rectangular
opening there appeared a plastic tray. And then, quick as you please,
two muffins materialized on the tray, which was then slid
unceremoniously through the opening and into my cubicle. My inner
mouse reemerged and I looked around, again wondering if this was too
good to be true.
These
were not standard, little, twelve-to-the-pan sized muffins. These
were absolutely enormous. These could have eaten regular muffins for
breakfast and still been hungry. And they smelled incredible. If my
stomach was misbehaving with digestive noises earlier, then at this
point it was downright monstrous.
The
screen flashed with instructions, and my inner mouse and I spent a
delightful fifteen minutes eating two giant apple cinnamon muffins
and answering questions. Which one was more moist? Which one had
better spices? Which one had the nicer texture? To me, both were
absolutely perfect and I'll never, ever taste a more divine apple
cinnamon muffin in my life. I was full before I could finish them
both.
As
I walked back into the office, the cheerful lady held out three
dollar bills to me. "Thank you for your time!"
"Wait,
this is… for me?"
"Yep!"
"Seriously?"
She
chuckled a bit. "Yep. Have a great day. Thanks for stopping in."
"No
problem..." and I walked out, feeling a bit dazed. Had that
actually happened? Yes, it had. The money was still in my hand and my
stomach was contentedly quiet. I wasn't hungry anymore.
And I now had three whole dollars to spend on even more food.
My
next prayer, full of gratitude, was more humble than the first. In my
earlier prayer I hadn’t even mentioned the payday issue.
I
felt like God was trying to tell me, "See? I have no
limitations. I can do anything. Nothing escapes my notice, even what
you don't tell me, so you should mention it all anyway. And by the
way, thank you for giving me a chance to prove that I can open the
windows of heaven and pour out more blessings than you can receive.”
Janae and her husband were an inseparable, delightful pair before the coming of their children. Now they are just as delightful and inseparable but with quite a bit more massmass that won't go to bed on time and asks so many questions that Janae often wonders if college was enough preparation for motherhood (it's not).
Janae currently serves as a senior primary teacher, a temporary sunbeam teacher, an assistant ward organist, an assistant primary pianist, and the choir pianist. And maybe some others. If you're bored on Sundays you should move to her ward.