"We seldom get into trouble when we speak softly. It is only when we raise our voices that the sparks fly and tiny molehills become great mountains of contention."
Last
Sunday registered at a level of crazy that I promise I attempted to
prepare for. If Sabbath Day success is measured in "needed items
actually taken to church" then I got a pretty low score. I left
important lesson papers and my scriptures at home, my grumbling
stomach didn't get any lunch, and by golly I am amazed I didn't
forget to bring one of my sticky children.
Before
I had steeled myself for Primary, the calm of sacrament meeting was
over. My kids burst from the safety of our pew to get to their
favorite part of the church block, and I gathered bags and followed
in a hurry. Teachers are supposed to set the spiritual and reverent
tone for their class, and how is that going to happen if the kids get
there first and lock them out?
Once
I got the nursery-bound potty trainee ready to go and delivered, it
was time for my own class. In the swirling madness of my mind I tried
with all of my heart and soul to give those obnoxious and adorable
ten-, eleven-, and twelve-year-olds my entire testimony.
The
lesson was about a triad of "lost" parables found in
chapter fifteen of Luke — the lost sheep, the lost piece of
silver, and the prodigal son. My whole idea (hope? goal?) was to tie
the search for these lost items and people into the magnificent
Doctrine and Covenants 18:10.
"Remember
the worth of souls is great in the sight of God."
Trying
to judge the attentiveness of the class drove me crazy. One boy
literally jumped up and down and sometimes it seemed he was even
jumping off the walls. I tried to ask engaging and thought-provoking
questions. A few of the students were right there, focused. God bless
them.
In the thick of it all I asked, "Why did that one
sheep matter? Without it the guy had almost a hundred others, so why
did one sheep matter at all?"
And this moment became
golden and stuck with me because a girl raised her hand and the
spirit touched my heart as she said, "Well, you could say that
the lost sheep is like a missing puzzle piece. It needed to be with
all of the others, or none of them would be complete."
The
rest of the lesson was still like slogging through spiritual
molasses. The kid helping write on the board was also playing
tic-tac-toe and disposing of stick figures in violent ways. Another
boy turned his iPad on and off, just to see his starting screen photo
(which makes sense because it's new). Another child was doing pretty
much everything with the library Bible except reading it.
But
for me, suddenly, I felt different — full of understanding.
That lost sheep wasn't just a sinner returning to the fold,
and the man who went after it wasn't just a kind shepherd who
knew his duty or just a poverty-stricken farmer who needed his
whole flock.
The
sheep was a child, learning and making mistakes. Even sinning on
purpose, perhaps. The man was a concerned father, trying to complete
a picture puzzle of eternal happiness. For him, that meant that his
entire family needed to be there. That's why the one piece mattered
to him.
The
parable became the importance and necessity and joy of sealing
ordinances — done through missionary work for the living and
the work of salvation for the dead.
I had never seen those
possibilities before. And in a very small way I noticed that
"remembering the worth of souls" had very eternal, and
still very personal, implications. Because, no puzzle would be
complete without all the pieces.
Yes, the rest of the
meetings were crazy. By the time I picked up my own children I was
seriously grumpy with all other children in the world and couldn't
wait to get back to the sanctuary of my own home. But I had had my
learning moment, and it stuck with me.
One
of my favorite things about volunteering in the Church is that I
stumble into these learning moments. They come often, especially when
I'm open to receiving them, but honestly it isn't easy to have this
openness as consistently as I'd like to have it.
(I
think another word for "open to instruction" is humility,
and humility often results in my feeling like "ain't that a kick
in the head." So, yeah — I'm still working on that.)
But
when the stars align and I'm actually ready and able to listen to the
quiet whispers of the ever-patient Spirit of God, I can learn
wonderful things. Those learning moments always do seem to hang
around, and I'm so glad they do.
Janae and her husband were an inseparable, delightful pair before the coming of their children. Now they are just as delightful and inseparable but with quite a bit more massmass that won't go to bed on time and asks so many questions that Janae often wonders if college was enough preparation for motherhood (it's not).
Janae currently serves as a senior primary teacher, a temporary sunbeam teacher, an assistant ward organist, an assistant primary pianist, and the choir pianist. And maybe some others. If you're bored on Sundays you should move to her ward.