In the
movie What If, Kevin Sorbo plays Ben Walker, a young man eager
to leave the confines of Clearville, his small-town home. He puts his
plans for the ministry on hold and tells Wendy, his fiancée,
that it will only be temporary as he leaves to pursue work in a
distant city.
Fifteen
years later, he’s become a hard-hitting investment banker—his
past in Clearville, including Wendy, all but forgotten. But hours
after a big promotion, while driving his new luxury automobile, he’s
intercepted by an angel and taken back to Clearville for a divine
“what if”: a second chance at the life God wanted for
him—life as a preacher in Clearville, husband to Wendy, and
father to their two children.
Not
surprisingly, Ben resists his new situation. It’s boring,
seemingly mundane, and a waste of his business talents. And to the
dismay and puzzlement of Wendy and the children, he insists he’s
not their husband and father.
But
there’s no escaping, and slowly Ben realizes that his selfish
attitude and actions are hurting the people around him. He finds the
angel and insists that he stop the “what if.” Instead,
the angel tells him the key is surrender to God—total and
complete surrender. It’s this surrender that changes Ben’s
life as he takes his focus off himself and wholeheartedly seeks to
follow the Lord’s plan for his life instead of his own.
After
watching this movie, I found myself wondering what it would be like
if I surrendered my life more fully to the Lord. Like many of you,
I’m trying to keep my baptismal covenants and follow the
Savior. Yet there are times when I resist the Holy Spirit telling me
to do something I find uncomfortable or unpleasant. Sometimes I’m
not as humble and submissive as I know I should be. There are times I
go through the motions, but my heart’s not in it. I want to do
things my own way. And the truth is, I like feeling as if I’m
in control of my life, even though time has proven that to be largely
an illusion.
The irony
of surrender to God is that it’s the “only surrender
which is also a victory” (“Settle This in Your Hearts,”
Neal A. Maxwell, October 1992 General Conference). In fact, as I look
back on those times when my will was most surrendered to God’s,
I see that those are the times of my greatest peace and happiness.
I love the
description of the humble followers of Christ in Helaman 3:35:
“Nevertheless they did fast and pray oft, and did wax stronger
and stronger in their humility, and firmer and firmer in the faith of
Christ, unto the filling their souls with joy and consolation, yea,
even to the purifying and the sanctification of their hearts, which
sanctification cometh because of their yielding their hearts unto
God.” (Emphasis added.)
So the
challenge of this week’s column is for each of us to do our own
“what if”: for one day, embrace wholehearted surrender to
the Lord. Make it a goal to learn His will and to do it, without
question or reservation (see “A Broken Heart and a Contrite
Spirit,”
Bruce D. Porter, October 2007 General Conference). I wonder how this
could make a difference for each of us and those we love.
Kathryn Grant is a user assistance professional with a passion
for usability and process
improvement. She also loves family history and enjoys the challenge and
reward of building her family tree.
As a child, she lived outside the United States for four years because of her father's job. This experience fueled her natural love of words and language, and also taught her to appreciate other cultures.
Kathryn values gratitude, teaching, learning, differences, and unity. She loves looking at star-filled skies, reading mind-stretching books, listening to contemporary Christian music, attending the temple, and eating fresh raspberries.
Kathryn teaches Sunday family history classes at the BYU Family History Library, and presents frequently at family history events. For more information, visit her Family History Learning Resources page