Last year, when I lived
in the new Heritage dorms on campus, I used to take advantage of a
sparsely-scheduled Tuesday to walk to the temple to do baptisms every
week. It was only about a twenty-minute walk, and I liked to go alone
in the middle of the day, while most other students were in class.
It meant that the
baptistry would be much emptier, and on many occasions it gave me
some much-needed time to myself to think, during the walk up, while
inside the temple, and on the walk back. I figured that I probably
wouldn’t ever live this close to a temple again, even during
later years at school, so I’d better take advantage of its
proximity while I could.
I didn’t think
about it then, but in retrospect, I took for granted that short,
sweet, non-encumbered walk I used to take from my apartment in the
new Heritage dorms to the temple every week. My new apartment is just
a little farther down the street, but in my absence over the summer,
construction has sprung up in many places around this particular edge
of campus, rendering many of the familiar routes I used to take
around the area useless.
It was a sticky, hot
August day last week, and I had just moved all my stuff into my
apartment. Because I had to be on campus to meet with my boss for
work, I decided, since I had nothing better to do, to walk up to the
temple and to do baptisms after I’d finished.
I knew there was some
construction going on around the BYU Creamery, so I headed through
Heritage Halls, gawking at the brand new dorms that had, this time
just last year, been nothing more than the skeletal frameworks of
buildings. It felt so weird being back and seeing how much had
changed over just one summer.
When I emerged from
among the buildings onto the street I would normally take to get to
the temple, I stopped, confused. Where there would have been a
sidewalk there was only a gravel-filled pit running alongside the
street, complete with orange cones and a fence to keep ordinary
people out. There was absolutely nowhere to walk without getting hit
by the cars that were whizzing by.
My eyes scanned the
section of road and then the field by the Conference Center where I
was standing, looking for a gap in the fence where the sidewalk might
have been left untouched. I wondered if maybe, since the sidewalk
looked to be impassable, I should just turn around and head home. But
I had been so looking forward to going to the temple today. I didn’t
want to just turn around and go home now.
Finally, I saw a spot
on the other side of the field where I thought I might be able to get
past the fence and to the street I needed. I headed across the field,
hoping that the sidewalk on the other side wasn’t torn up as
well.
It wasn’t, and I
excitedly hurried down it towards the street I needed to get to walk
to the temple. My excitement was short-lived, however, when the
sidewalk came to an abrupt end just before I reached the intersection
I needed to cross.
The sidewalk
construction ran on indefinitely in both directions on my side of the
street. The sidewalk on the side opposite me looked intact —
but how was I supposed to get there? I could see no crosswalk and
there was nowhere to wait for the light to change without getting
squashed.
I sighed in
frustration. This shouldn’t be that difficult! I was hot and
disheveled, not to mention covered in sweat from the sun, and I was
sure I was beginning to burn. I supposed I would have to turn around
and go home.
I hovered there
undecidedly, not wanting to turn back but not wanting to brave the
unpredictable intersection. I looked over in the direction of the
temple — I could just see the top of the spire above the trees.
I was so close. I couldn’t give up now.
I got as close to the
street as I could without falling into the gutted sidewalk or the
road and watched the traffic lights. When they turned red, I sprinted
across the street (or as close to sprinted as I could in a skirt). I
got to the sidewalk just as the lights turned green again.
I was flushed and
sweating even more now but triumphant: as far as I could tell, there
was no construction on the sidewalk on my side of the road. I
practically skipped down the sidewalk, happy that I wasn’t
going to have to turn around after all.
When I finally got to
the temple, sweaty, exhausted and feeling more than a little
sunburnt, I wondered for one moment if the baptistry would even be
open. There didn’t seem to be many people around.
But when I walked
downstairs I saw that the baptistry was indeed open, though it seemed
like it was pretty empty. Two elderly temple workers dressed in white
were standing talking at the recommend desk. They looked up as I came
down the stairs, and their faces lit up.
“Hello,”
one of them said cheerfully to me. “We’ve been waiting
for you!”
I smiled as I pulled
out my recommend and handed it to the man behind the desk. It was so
good to be back in Provo.
It seems silly to me
now that something as simple as construction could have such a huge
impact on my walk to the temple. I didn’t know beforehand that
I was going to have to alter my route so drastically and take an
extra twenty minutes to get there. I’ll still probably try to
go every week, but now that I know where the construction is, it’ll
be much easier to avoid it in the future.
I thought a lot as I
was walking to the temple that day about how similar my situation
was, in a lot of ways, to reaching spiritual goals. For me, the
construction was more of a puzzle than a real challenge: how to get
to the temple, despite there being (seemingly) no way to walk there?
It wasn’t too
difficult, once I had navigated my way through the construction; but
while I was stuck, it suddenly seemed like too much work to get past
the orange cones and as though the better option would be to turn
around and go home.
We all have challenges
like this that will inevitably crop up and stand in the way as we try
to progress in our spiritual growth. They might be inconveniences,
obstacles, trials, guilt over past sins. Often they can get
discouraging. They can make it seem like it is impossible to get to
where we want to be — like it is easier and makes more sense to
stay put or move backwards rather than to try to change and
progress.
Though the adversary
seems to have no end of construction projects to throw in and disrupt
our path, it is ultimately our decision to keep moving and look for
ways around them. Once we do this, navigating the challenges will
become easier, until at last the way is clear.
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