My
boarding school set aside a day for students to pour into town for
supplies or to just air themselves. Like a carnival, this special day
enabled us to enjoy unaccustomed liberties. The rest of the time we
were corralled off by an impregnable fence and strict regulations.
Excitement
over the outing was dizzying as everyone savored the opportunity to
get away from the tedium of a highly regimented school life. Even
those who had no one to visit or anything to shop for in the town
gladly roamed the streets just to catch a whiff of freedom. Since
there were no public parks or places of interest to go, many of us
simply strolled, kicked up dirt in open fields and, later, romped in
a nearby river before returning to the school in time to beat the
curfew.
Swimming
in the river was fun, especially because it was so cooling after our
rough and tumble games in the blazing and pounding sun. Occasionally,
though, someone got overpowered by the swift currents and drowned.
There were no lifeguards, even when the tragic incidents regularly
happened on days when the school released its students to go to town.
That, of course, did not stop many students from going on dates and
picnics by the river.
Because
my circumstances were tough and my parents sternly warned me against
messing with that river, I duly avoided places that could spell
trouble. Since reading was my hobby, I made the town’s derelict
public library my haunt.
The
library held mostly outdated and miserable-looking books the
departing British colonial administrators had no use for when they
left. The books were dog-eared and their fraying pages dusty and
perforated by worms. Some of these pages were either missing or so
worn out it was impossible to read even with a magnifying glass. The
library was startlingly squalid and, like our other facilities that
were in pernicious decline, belied the fact that our nation pumped
two million barrels of crude oil daily. To be so mineral-rich yet
lead the world in reeling poverty was a conundrum that addled the
mind.
The
books reeked with decay and oozed with noxious chemicals that had
been used in a halfhearted attempt at binding the disintegrating
pages. Though these fumes choked readers each time they pulled books
out of the sagging shelves, they did not keep me away from the books.
The seedy library helped catapult me out of a virulent reality and
remained my main source of mental contact with the outside world. I
gleaned whatever information I could from them, the irksome
conditions notwithstanding. I read with driving passion books on
geography, history and government.
I
was fascinated by the American Revolution, especially how the
Americans rallied and threw off the corruption and tyranny of the
empire. The valor of Crispus Attucks, who was killed in a 1770
conflict in Boston and reputed as the first martyr of the revolution,
loomed in my memory for a long time. I even fancied taking that name
as my nickname.
African
American leaders in the period following the revolution arrested my
imagination, challenged and inspired me inexorably. I respected the
odds Booker T. Washington overcame to get education, but the man who
really captured my interest was Frederick Douglass.
He
never ceased to amaze me. To escape from slavery, learn to read and
write all by himself and rise to become an ambassador and an adviser
to the president, was no mean feat. A saying attributed to him that,
“If you learn how to read you will always be free,” stuck
in my heart like a burr.
I
always yearned for freedom from an atmosphere diminished by
ignorance, poverty and superstition, all of which were never on short
leash in my community. All — adversities both man-made and
natural — were seen as the result of some evil machination.
Crop failure, death by natural causes, the outbreak of disease due to
fetid sanitary conditions and even storms were considered as the
handiwork of some sinister, diabolical forces. Even when local
leaders cynically exploited the people and ruthlessly impoverished
them, it was accepted as the will of the gods.
The
cluelessness and denial were appalling.
It
sickened me to see the way runaway poverty put our lives on hold, yet
our leadership’s priorities were too skewered to bother with
slowing down the affront. Food fights and squabbles were common in
families. A large family of more than twelve would, on festive
occasions like Easter or Christmas, share one chicken.
The
poor bird would be chopped into crumbs so that everyone could at
least sniff its flesh or bone. Nothing was wasted. From the head
through the intestines to the feet of the chicken, everything was
consumed. What we couldn’t eat, such as the feathers, we used
to make headgears for our masks.
My
father used to tell the story of a man from such a family. Enabled by
a scholarship to travel for studies in Britain, the impoverished
fellow visited a restaurant where he sat eating a chicken and
grinding all its bones provocatively with his teeth.
A
scandalized customer beside him asked, “What do folks feed dogs
in your country?” Annoyed by the intruder’s interest in
his table manners, the man kept chewing irately at the bones in his
plates. When he was finished, he replied, “Ice cream!”
To
drive the lesson home, Father always stressed that while we could rip
bones and savor the marrow at home, when dining outside we shouldn’t
forget Goethe’s warning that, “Behavior is a mirror in
which everyone displays his own image.”
At
the time, I had no idea how deeply my difficult environment scripted
itself on me. But one day as I was stepping out of the library, I ran
into the sister of an uncle’s wife. She worked in the local
hospital as a matron and knew me well. Looking at me she could tell I
was grimly famished and invited me home in her car.
Getting
home she served a meal of rice and stew, which I gobbled up like a
starving wolf. I however did not touch the big drumstick in the stew
because I was not accustomed to such bounty. When she noticed I did
not eat the meat she asked if I had anything against chicken. I told
her I hadn’t, but just couldn’t believe it possible for a
boy my age to eat a drumstick all by himself!
As
my response drew a reassuring laughter from her, I went from
disbelief to exhilaration when she ordered me to cut out the
foolishness and eat the chicken. It felt too good to be true.
From
the aroma caressing my nostrils I could sense the meat was well
seasoned with curry powder, oregano, onions, ginger and nutmeg, all
of which were spices that made my mouth water like Pavlov’s
dog. The stew in which it sat was made from olive oil and plenty of
fresh and canned tomatoes. Taking time to savor the stew, I then
gingerly caressed the meat, nibbling it with relish and taking time
to clean off all the flesh before ravenously crunching its bone. To
this day, that woman and her gesture sit pretty in my memory. When I
eventually returned to school, I felt like royalty.
Imo Ben Eshiet was born in Port Harcourt, Nigeria. Raised in his village, Uruk Enung, and at
several cities in his country including Nsukka, Enugu, Umuahia, Eket and Calabar, Eshiet is a
detribalized Nigerian. Although he was extensively exposed to Western education right from
childhood in his country where he obtained a PhD in English and Literary Studies from the
University of Calabar, he is well nurtured in African history, politics, culture and traditions.
Imo is currently a teacher in the high priests group in the Summit Ward of the Greensboro North
Carolina Stake.