"We seldom get into trouble when we speak softly. It is only when we raise our voices that the sparks fly and tiny molehills become great mountains of contention."
Ambition can be a good thing, when it's channeled the right way.
The desire to become more than we now are -- we all feel it. We teach it to our children, when
we expect them to "amount to something."
The problems arise when we start deciding what the "something" we're supposed to "amount to"
should be.
Regardless of my opinions of the candidates running for President right now, I have to be in awe
at the strength of their ambition. Look what they put up with! The schedules they keep, the way
they have to beg for money, the necessity of watching every word they say, so that they make
their potential voters feel good without annoying anybody too much.
I imagine myself in their position, and I don't think I'd last three days before I said, "This is
crazy, I'm going to speak my mind, sleep in till ten, and I'm not going to suck up to rich idiots in
order to get their money."
Of course, within a week I'd be out of the race, so it would be easier just to announce I was no
longer a candidate.
Fortunately, though, I already know this about myself: I'm just not ambitious enough.
Well, that's not true. I'm extremely ambitious. Just not to be President.
That's how we find out what our true ambitions are, isn't it? We see what we want to
accomplish so badly that we'll do what it takes to achieve it.
Our innate hunger to grow, to be greater, to achieve something -- it starts out as an inchoate
longing, a sort of restlessness. Until somebody tells us a story that we want to fulfil.
As a kid, I remember latching on to dream after dream. I read a book about the history of
medicine, and I wanted to be a doctor. I read Bruce Catton's Army of the Potomac and I was
going to go to West Point and become a general. I read Thor Heyerdahl's Kon Tiki and Aku Aku
and I was going to be an archaeologist.
The trouble was that once I found out what it took to pursue any of these dreams, I realized I
didn't have enough ambition to do the required work. Instead, I did the things that came easily
to me: performing, directing, writing. I even got paid for doing the last one, and voila: I had a
career.
But none of these was my real ambition. The focus of my ambition had been formed early on.
In my parents' home, where I was raised with the sure knowledge that the outside world was
where you had to go to earn a living, but your true life's work was in the Church.
My parents both worked, and worked hard. But the joy of their lives, the work that put their
whole heart and soul into, seemed to me to be their church service.
They magnified every calling they had, going the extra mile, throwing in extra service, spending
all their extra time on it. The message to me was clear: This is worth doing. This is what
matters: what we do for the Lord's people, in the Lord's name.
But only certain kinds of ambition are right for the Church. And some are hopelessly wrong.
Competitive Ambition, for instance. This is the kind of ambition that makes you focus on a
rival; success consists of doing better than the other guy.
This can work in athletics, during a single race or a struggle to catch -- or intercept -- a pass, or
snag a rebound. Beat the other guy.
But what does it have to do with the gospel? There is no place in the gospel where we rise by
beating somebody else. Competitiveness is the enemy of godly ambition.
Dragon Ambition doesn't work for Christians, either. This is the desire to keep gathering to
yourself all the symbols of success -- money, power, followers -- long after you've achieved
enough. In fact, dragons don't have any concept of "enough."
But in the Church, we have a calling only as long as we have it. When we're released, we let it
go.
Others have Career Ambition. They see their church callings as a constantly rising line, so that
any "lesser" calling is regarded as a setback.
They set their sights on a lofty Church office, forgetting that whoever would be greatest should
be the servant of all.
Then, when they reach an age where it's clear they will never have the calling that meant
"success" to them, they are bitterly disappointed and feel like they've failed. But if they served
well in all their callings, however humble, they certainly did not fail the Lord!
When I became a deacon, I was called to be quorum secretary. I brought a notebook to every
quorum meeting and kept a record of what was discussed and decided, what lessons were taught,
who passed the sacrament at Sunday school and sacrament meeting.
I was doing what I had seen my parents do with their callings.
After six months of this, it was clear to me that the adult leaders had no idea what to do with me.
I would show them my work product, and they tried to pretend they cared, but I realized that
nobody ever did the job the way I was doing it.
Of course that only encouraged me to do it more. I was the best! (Yes, that would be
Competitive Ambition.)
Then the quorum presidency was reorganized, and a bishopric member actually took me aside to
explain that I wasn't being made president -- indeed, I wasn't in the presidency at all -- because
the other boys thought I was weird and they had to call as "leaders" people that the other boys
would "follow."
I couldn't understand why I was so hurt and angry. Unaware of my own Career Ambition, I had
unconsciously expected to be called to a "higher" office because of my good service. I
remember complaining to my parents about how ridiculous it was for the adults to choose, not
the best examples, but the most popular kids to lead.
Calling aren't given as rewards, my dad said. The people in authority are simply doing their best
to fill positions with the right people, and sometimes they're inspired and sometimes they're not,
but it's their stewardship to make those callings to those who they think will do well with them.
Sometimes it's you. Usually it isn't.
It took years, but I finally understood. My ambition should be for the Church to grow stronger
and better and larger, not for me to grow stronger and better and larger within it. It wasn't about
me, it was about the Kingdom of God.
To which many readers are saying, Duh. Well, of course I knew the words when I was young. It
took all those years to tame my heart enough to realize how those words applied in my life.
Righteous Ambition is to be an active part of something greater than yourself, a community of
good people doing good.
To be anxiously engaged in a good cause.
It's all there, in plain English. OK, sometimes not so plain, but it's there.
The world rewards selfish ambition -- the Competitors, the Dragons, the Careerists. But the
Lord honors the ambitious Stewards, the ones who take what they are given and magnify it, with
the goal of returning it to the Lord with thanks.
Orson Scott Card is the author of the novels Ender's Game, Ender's
Shadow, and Speaker for the Dead, which are widely read by adults and
younger readers, and are increasingly used in schools.
Besides these and other science fiction novels, Card writes contemporary
fantasy (Magic Street,Enchantment,Lost Boys), biblical novels (Stone Tables,Rachel and Leah), the American frontier fantasy series The Tales of Alvin Maker
(beginning with Seventh Son), poetry (An Open Book), and many plays and
scripts.
Card was born in Washington and grew up in California, Arizona, and
Utah. He served a mission for the LDS Church in Brazil in the early 1970s.
Besides his writing, he teaches occasional classes and workshops and directs
plays. He also teaches writing and literature at Southern Virginia University.
Card currently lives in Greensboro, North Carolina, with his wife,
Kristine Allen Card, and their youngest child, Zina Margaret.